There must be Angels among us!

Today was my Nan's wake.

I know for a fact that someone was watching over me and someone was helping me through this difficult time. I was calm and mature during this difficult time and knew my Nan would be impressed with how I presented myself. Losing a loved one is hard, but having your own mother not well at the same time is really hard.

At 12:30 my father and I went to the hospital to pick up my Mother so we could go to the wake together. Since my mom's surgery, she's in pain, highly medicated and in need of a lot of rest. I can only imagine what she's going through and how she will be when she is healed. I believe that so many thoughts are running through her mind.

My mom got her day pass to attend this wake but had to return to the hospital afterwards as she still isn't being released. My mom was very drowsy and didn't look well but she put in a long couple hours at the funeral home. I was impressed with her but saddened inside knowing her circumstances.

I was at the wake for the evening without my parents. But I had lots of family to keep me strong. My nan was certainly loved, there were so many people there. I knew if my nan were here while having dementia, she would have said "who the f*ck are all these people?" hahaha. she would have said those exact words, honestly. My nan didn't hold anything back. I loved that about her.

Today she was like an Angel. She was so peaceful looking. and gorgeous? oh my god, she looked wonderful. She looked 30 years younger. it was perfect, just like she is.

I miss her a lot already. But i would never wish her to suffer and live the life she was living these past few years. I know she is with me, and wouldn't doubt it if she gave me the strength to make it through this day.

Tomorrow will be the final goodbye. I and all grandchildren are honorary paul bearers. I know Nan would have loved that :)

Life is about changes and the final stage to change is tomorrow. There are angels among us, I know this.