the sun is shining...

So today I arrived home in Miramichi with Steven and Billy.

Hearing my nan's death on the radio made it more real, not that it ever felt unreal...

our first stop? the hospital where I went and paid a visit to my mother who is still in the hospital recovering from her gallbladder surgery. My mom is in a lot of pain, still. It breaks my heart to see her in this state. Not only does she lose her mother who she was dearly close to but also continues to suffer from more than one surgery in 5 months.

Another way to look at it is from my mom to my nan i am clearly born in a family of strong women who never give up till the very end. I like that quality.

Tomorrow is my Nan's wake 2-4 and 7-9. I'm not near as worked up as I normally would be. I guess I wanted my Nan at peace and I know she is finally happy. That comes from strength and not being selfish, I know she'd be proud that I and many of family members feel the same way :)

I haven't seen many family members yet, but I'm sure in the next day I will.

so the sun is shining today.. I'm sure it's my Nan shining from above.

May the Lord grant me strength to get through this difficult time.